I have been rather absent from my blog this past week. To say it has been a crazy week would be an understatement. Some of you read my tweets about being at the hospital and became concerned. Thank you for all of your prayers and kind words. I spend the majority of the beginning of the week at the hospital with a dear friend, and the end of the week, I spent saying good bye.
I met Abuela about 3 years ago when we merged our church with another church. She spoke very little English, and I spoke very little Spanish, and yet, I instantly liked her. I found myself spending more and more time with her and even though communicating was difficult, we always found a way. She taught me so much about loving people and showing people love... even without words. Somehow, with her, words were unimportant.
Even as I sit here, writing this, I can't seem to find the words... there just are no words that are great enough to begin to explain who she was. I have so many memories of her playing dominoes or canasta, or watching a movie with us (even if it was in English). I remember her laugh, and her smile, and the way she would kiss me on the cheek as she greeted me or said goodbye. I remember her small hands clutching mine for no reason, other than to seemingly make it clear that she cared. She was always so good at showing that she cared.
She leaves behind a legacy. A family that cherished her and loved on her while she was here... and who will miss her and remember her for who she was now that she is gone. She leaves behind a church family that adored her and doted on her. And she leaves behind a memory... a feeling of love that will outlast everything else.
How do you say goodbye to someone you love? I don't know if anyone has ever properly answered this question. I think this is one of the most difficult aspects of human life. Death.
I take comfort in this verse from Revelation 21:4 "He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."
Jeremy Camp puts it so well. Here is his video, "There Will Be a Day".
Abuela... Thank you for your life... for your friendship... for your love.
I know I'll see you again one day!
In the mean time... Say hello to Jesus for me!